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of the trauma of his strenuous exertion (
padhāna
), he could not, however, get
peace. Nevertheless, his willingness to pursue the struggle remained unflinching.
The Bodhisatta Faints
Afflicted thus with a great heat all over his body, the Bodhisatta fainted and fell
down into a sitting position while walking.
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When the Bodhisatta fell down in
this manner, the Devas who were present near the walk made three different
comments:
Some Devas said: “Ascetic Gotama is dead.” Others said: “Ascetic Gotama is not
dead, he is dying.” Still others said: “Ascetic Gotama is neither dead nor dying,
he has become an Arahat. Such is the posture in which an Arahat sits.”
Out of these Devas making their comments, those who said. “Ascetic Gotama is
dead,” went to King Suddhodana
and told him thus: “Your son is dead.” When
the king asked, “Is my son dead before or after attaining Buddhahood?” they
replied: “Your son did not get the chance to become a Buddha. While striving,
he fell down and died there on the walk.” – “I do not believe you! Without
attaining omniscience, death cannot occur to my son,” asserted the king
emphatically.
The Bodhisatta Took Less Food
When he recovered from his faint, the Bodhisatta thought thus: “It would be
good if I were to practise without eating food at all.” Thereupon, the Devas said
to him: “Bodhisatta, noble ascetic! Do not cut off food altogether. O Bodhisatta,
noble ascetic! If you cut off the food altogether, we shall have to inject divine
food through the pores of your skin. And with that food you will be sustained.”
Then it occurred to the Bodhisatta thus: “If I decide not to take food at all, and
if these Devas give me divine food through the pores of my skin, and if I live on
that despite my claim to fast completely, my sustenance with the aid of divine
food will be deceptive and self-contradictory.” So he said to the Devas: “Devas,
do not inject divine food through the pores of my skin. I shall take just enough
food to sustain myself.”
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He did not fall down lying on his face in an unsightly manner. Being one endowed
with great mindfulness, he just fell into a sitting posture while walking up and down.