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Again, it occurred to the Bodhisatta: “It would be good if I were to develop the
absorption on non-breathing (
appānaka-jhāna
) again.” So, with unrelenting
effort, he restrained exhalation and inhalation through his nose and his mouth
and his ears. Thereupon, a violent wind battered his head and as a result, he
suffered from very severe headaches. It was like a great suffering caused by a
man of tremendous strength who fastens a leather strap around the head and
tightens it.
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At that time, too, his energy was as vigorous as before, it was not
slackened at all. His mindfulness was still very distinct and steadfast. Never did
he lose his awareness. But his painful effort made the whole of his body battered,
as it were, which was heated all over and knew no relief. Although he was in
such a miserable plight, his willingness to pursue the struggle remained
unflinching.
Still again, it occurred to the Bodhisatta: “It would be good if I were to develop
the absorption on non-breathing (
appānaka-jhāna
) again.” So, with unrelenting
effort, he restrained exhalation and inhalation through his nose, his mouth and
his ears, as before. Thereupon, the air was of such great intensity that it injured
his abdomen as if carving it up. It was as if a skilful butcher or his assistant cut
up the abdomen with a sharp butcher’s knife. At that time, too, his energy was as
strong as before, it was not slackened at all. His mindfulness was very distinct
and steadfast. Never did he lose his awareness. But the painful effort made the
whole of his body battered, as it were, which was heated all over and knew no
relief. Although he was in such a miserable plight, his willingness to pursue the
struggle remained unflinching.
Once more, it occurred to the Bodhisatta: “It would be good if I were to develop
the absorption on non-breathing (
appānaka-jhāna
) again.” So, with unrelenting
effort, he restrained exhalation and inhalation through his mouth, his nose and
his ears, as before. Thereupon, the whole of his body suffered from a violent
burning disease (
ḍāha-roga
). It was like a severe burn when a weak man was
grilled over a big fire by two strong men, each on either side, holding him by the
right arm and the left. At that time, the whole of the Bodhisatta’s body burned
hot. At the same time, his energy was not slackened but remained as strong as
before. His
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mindfulness was extremely distinct and steadfast. On account
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Imagine that a man of strength puts a large loop of a strong leather strap around your
head and he twisted it with a stick to tighten it. His headaches were similar to this.